6.20.2007

Originate

I recently saw an article in O mag about adoption and a mother's story of meeting her daughter's birth mother. There was a pull out quote that said:

"I feel deep regret that I couldn't originate my children." - Carol Brennan

This statement has been haunting me for days. I have many many problems with it on many levels.

First, how can you feel regret for something you are physically unable to do?
Regret to me is a choice. It is the remorse felt after making a choice you now believe to be the wrong choice. How is being unable to "originate" children a choice? Now, I did not read this article, so it is possible somewhere in there, she confesses to committing some terrible crime against her body which resulted in her being unable to make children, I don't know. But my guess is, she does not.

Second, WHY? Why does she feel this regret?
I am convinced, especially now that I am in my 30s, that I am missing the "I must create and birth my own children!" gene. This task is nowhere to be found on my list, despite my desire (although weak at this point) to RAISE a child. I am a realist on many levels and I have the (apparently, unique) ability to look at my genes and wonder which of my biological traits should be passed on. I have a feeling, however, that this is not on the minds of those who are trying to conceive. Why not? Shouldn't it be? Shouldn't we all be more aware of the choices we make, including this one? Does the mother of a serial killer accept the responsibility for what their child has done? She "originated" him/her after all! What traits in her and the father were passed on to cause this? Ok, that's a tangent, and I will end it here. Basically, I'm saying, I don't see what is so bad, or deeply "regretful", about not being able to make offspring and having to adopt. It seems a fine option to me.